i am staring down the barrel of a gun. i pulled the trigger months ago and have been waiting patiently for the round to finally jiggle free.

with a smooth motion i decided to end my life as i knew it. by the grace of god my purpose was given new meaning. i have prayed daily since, never to ask for another thing (save for world peace, ha), but to thank whatever force brought me here. it is too late to undo.

the seemingly obvious solution to the problem is to dodge the bullet. instead i will close my eyes, wrap my lips around the hot steel and let my life continue flashing before me.